Today is your first birthday. You are one whole year old.
(Pause for some hysterical sobbing. No really I’m fine it’s fine everything is FINE.)
Way back when you were still in my belly house, I made a plan to write you a letter on your first birthday. But it seemed so far off, almost to the extent that I couldn’t even imagine it. And then I blinked… and here we are. One year! One year full of ups, downs, twists, turns, somersaults, cartwheels, bellyflops, and a whole lotta poop. My favorite year, ever.
I’ve been feeling pretty nostalgic this past week. I’ve been thinking about where I was and what I was feeling a year ago. Exactly one year ago from the moment I’m writing this, I was waking up in the hospital from a restless night’s sleep. I’d been induced the night before and I knew I would be meeting you today. I was nervous, excited, scared, and so so incredibly eager to meet the little gremlin that had been kicking me in the ribs for the past 38 weeks. After a pretty intense day, you finally made your way into the world. When your papa told me “it’s a boy!”, I felt a joy that I could never even attempt to describe in words. And I’ve felt that joy every single day since.
You, my boy, are everything. You are the silliest, sweetest, most curious baby I know. You are so independent, it amazes me. You’re smart. You’re confident. You have the best sense of humor. And you are already like, way cooler than I’ll ever be. Every day I thank my lucky stars that I get to hang out with you for the rest of my life. (Please don’t ever leeeeave me!)
Listen up kid, because this is the most important part. If you should ever read this, I want you to know that I am so incredibly proud to be your mama. I want you to know that I will love and support you unconditionally, forever. I want you to know that your papa and I have become better people and a better team, because of you. I really want you to know that we couldn’t possibly love you more.
We have a lot of life to look forward to with you, but until then… I want to wish you a very happy birthday, sweet baby guy.
I love you so.